Ah, the sweet smell of humiliation in the morning. It's a bit of a shocker when looking at designs for build-your-own holiday cards (the ones at Photoworks are way cool, by the way) becomes a pointed commentary on how solitarily I've been leading my life. Considering which design I might like to choose for a Yule card, I realized that I don't have any photos of shiny happy faces to make a card with. I don't even have a dog! Somehow, I can't imagine that my pretty photos of scenery and buildings will have the same effect.

Before you reach for your tiny violin, I want to make clear that this isn't meant to be a bid for sympathy. It's really a reflection on the path I've allowed my life to take. Without a strong hand keeping a tight hold on the reigns, the creatures have taken the chariot wherever they damn well pleased. Falling asleep at the, erm... leather... is not a good thing!

Saturday evening I attended a Mabon ritual in Cambridge. It was made up largely of the community of people I have come to know through my witchcraft classes and through spending time at various events hosted by the former Unicorn Books. It was heartening to see that, even without a set of brick walls to provide a formal space for our community to exist within, the community is still strong and active. This is a testament to what can happen when people care enough to stay involved.

Part of the lesson of the evening's ritual - which is what we witches turn to thinking about at this time of year amongst all of the feasting and celebration of the "harvest" - is how we must be willing to accept death so that life can continue. At this time of year we must look at what is not working for us and let it go so that we can make room for the new. Over the past week, as I've written about the New Moon and the Eclipse and the Mabon Sabbat, I've commented a lot on this idea. The Goddess is standing up there with her megaphone trying to get my attention!

What I realize I need to do is let go of whatever habits, inhibitions and honest-to-goodness laziness I have allowed to get in the way of filling my life with people. I have to care enough to stay involved in my own progress - to strongly take the reigns of the chariot back in hand and purposefully guide my life in a direction that leads to the spiritual fulfillment, professional satisfaction, and family of shiny, happy faces that I yearn for. It is up to me. And maybe a little help from the Goddess.

Posted by Angela-Eloise at 11:04 AM